Just couldn't help but ask that question. Wanqing, Yang and I met up with Peng Fong for lunch, and when I emailed him thereafter, he made some comment about almost being unable to recognise me.
In any case, lunch was still great. If only Peng Fong was much more senior, then he could have been a pupil master, and I would be super grateful for the chance to be his pupil. At least, he is more approachable, and is better at mentoring. In fact, in some ways, I prefer his way of analysing a matter, whether work related or not. He may not be even a salaried partner (this is of course targetted at some stupid guy who enjoys harping on the fact that his partner is merely a salaried partner whereas mine is an equity partner... Seriously, my answer to that is "so?") but he is an excellent teacher, listener and friend all rolled into one. Where else can you get a better pupil master, right?
Somehow, I really do regret asking VY for help for the pupillage move. R---- may be a good firm, but at the end of the day, if I'm not learning and I feel extra and on some days, terribly depressed, what's the point? Just like, when I was deciding whether to help Beatrice check something in the library, I took a long while to make up my mind to go downstairs, simply because the library is in the Litigation department and I didn't want to run into my pupil master (whom I'm sure saw me today, though I quickly scampered away from view). But then again, I avoid RE like plague too! Today, V "reconfirmed" that I was "the one from NTUC", which reinforced the point that I'm the outsider there. It feels super weird and I really do feel helplessly extra. But there's nothing I can do other than thicken my skin and continue to sit there. Maybe that's why I'll rather ask for work from LAs (even if it's Eugene). At least I don't feel weird. And as what I told Weiguang today, this situation just makes me prone to becoming depressed. Somedays, I just can't tell whether it's just because I'm churning way too lousy pieces of work that no one gives me anything. (But I haven't even started doing work for any of them here yet!)
Thankfully, there's always Kiat Wee around. I was that bored to send him an email asking if he had any work for me. He appeared over this side to pass me something to do and it's not even the kind of work that seemed like it was to 敷衍 me. Thanks to people like Kiat Wee, Ben, and some others, work or rather being thick skinned is not as dreadful. In a way, I'm glad I did attachment whilst they were pupils, so at least, things feel a lot better =)
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