Was still pondering whether yesterday's entry needs amendments (that's the ill-effects of doing proof reading at work, I tend to proof read my entries nowadays..) but then, I decided against turning it correct. Afterall, although blogs are meant to be in the public domain (ie you have to watch what you are typing, but if one is going to edit everything to please everyone, then the blog loses its inital use, that is, to be true to one's thoughts. In that case, it'll be better not to have a blog at all, since you won't even dare to rant in it, agree?)
Seriously though, I really think I'm over capable of thinking too much. Who else is able to feel guilty over nothing for more than a day! Oh well, it might also be due to me concussing way too much these two days, such that, my total waking hours equate with my normal hours spent feeling guilty.
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And initially, I thought there would be more food for thought today, especially after what I had planned to do this morning, ie. drop by Buangkok MRT today for some 'talk programme'. Yet, when I got there, I didn't see any UFM personnel. So suffice to say, there's nothing much to talk of on that.
And yes, Buangkok MRT is finally opened, after a whole barrage of excuses. Not enough residents in the area? I wonder what HAS changed. Perhaps the greatest determining factor (ie, the great big E is round the corner) huh?
Certain topics are meant for private conversations, definitely not in the public domain. I've realised that studying law has its advantages and disadvantages. One tends to be a bit careful when talking/doing things.
Whilst chatting with a friend last night, I made one comment of his change since JC. Actually, it's really difficult to not change at all with time. Me? Somehow, I think I've changed for the worse. More irritable for one. Told Mingyi sometimes last week on MSN (I think it's last week, though I'm not sure) that I don't exactly like human interaction. Perhaps I've just forgotten how to mix harmoniously with people. Perhaps I've become even more protective of myself that I've built an even thicker, harder shell around myself. Have I become less sensitive, less caring, less trusting, colder and more self-centred? Frankly, I think so.
But as a particular saying goes, it's way easier to change for the worse than to get rid of the bad habits. It's one thing to know one's faults, and another to be able to reverse it for that matter. Seriously, I don't foresee myself becoming less detestable in the near future.
Another sign of my bad habits - procrastinating! I had initially planned to finish the work I owed WL and LY over this weekend since firstly, I've already rotated to another department, secondly, WL's work was given last week and thirdly, LY's work is due this week. In the end, rather than researching, reading and writing, I end up merely typing... this entry. Goodness gracious! I guess I definitely don't qualify as a workaholic then. Not when I don't particuarly bring work home to complete.
Seriously though, uncertainty is never good, especially if it affects your aim. Being without a goal means you do not know what exactly are you working towards. And when you do not know what you are working towards, you tend not to do anything about it.
