Friday, May 29, 2009

Intolerance, a step towards downfall?

Couldn't help but applaud when I read the parliamentary comment by Assoc Prof Koo (Tanjong Pagar GRC) when he stated that intolerance, and not the economic crisis, poses the biggest threat to Singapore. Finally, a person who's willing to call a spade a spade, and not deal with the matter in a roundabout manner.

If like what Prof Thio said, that the media had blown up the entire AWARE saga, why on earth did she deem it fit to raise it in parliament again, now that the dust has supposedly settled? If the media were truly biased in their reporting, they could have totally left out your and another unknown MP's parliamentary speech. The fact is that (as Prof Thio would probably know since she lectures on Human Rights anyway), the media is still made up of humans, and humans are entitled to expression, reporters or not. As long as they do not go overboard in their reporting, who are you to stop them from congratulating the new-old exco from scoring the coup against the team led by your mother?

The way I see it (not that my view really really matters, of course), the whole parliamentary speech is like a broken tape recorder played by a sore loser. If the papers had slanted towards your mum's "we-should-bring-down-the-pro-gay-AWARE-people", would you, or Mr Sin still accuse the papers of being biased, for not sufficiently reporting on "the other side"? The fact is, you won't.

Frankly, I totally agree with our Minister of State for Defence (ok, I admit I didn't know he was a Minister of State before this, but that's not THAT bad, right?) that "While we focus our energies on solving this economic crisis, we should never lose sight of the long-term challenge of building a tolerant, diverse and inclusive infrastructure where everybody has a private space within the bigger common space". Lest you or your mum accuses me of being "sexually challenged" (haha.. what a funny term, no wonder people had to write in to the forum to comment on it), let me just clarify that I am not (disliking certain males that I have to deal with on a routine basis doesn't count, I'm sure). My only difference is probably just that I have friends whom you view negatively. But that doesn't matter, frankly, because to me, they are still priceless. Sexual preference does not make or break a person. In fact, some of my dearest friends are way better than those "normal" ones who may be useless, less caring and downright self centred.

Besides, if you look at it from a policy point of view, if you were to argue that it is these people who affect the growth of our population, given that they will probably not form a "normal" family unit, perhaps you may explain the difference between them, and a not-married-and-probably-will-end-up-single-for-the-rest-of-their-lives "normal" being, who too, does not in any way aid in the growth of our nation. As long as everyone contributes to improving the society, who are you to judge others? Just like what our pledge says "To built a democratic society, based on justice and EQUALITY". Justice is insufficent if you do not have equality as well.

To further clarify, I am not exerting that you may not take your anti-gay views. But do not attempt to impose it on others who choose to look at it from another view. As long as one doesn't step past others' boundaries, it is fine whatever you choose because that is your own life.

Which brings me to another point about keeping within boundaries. Audrey mentioned the other day about GLC's ex COO overstepping the boundaries when he called her home after she missed his call on her handphone. That, I truly agree too. In this day and age where mobile phones are a common sight, home phones are really dedicated to certain individuals whom we deem important enough. So it's just pure rude and annoying if you can't get a person, and you have to call the person's home to hunt down the person. If it is not life and death, so be it. In fact, we agree that it is as rude and ill mannered as calling people at ungodly hours of the day for non life-and-death matters. (For the most important friends in my life, for eg. Randall, Gary, Qi, Koon, Lijia, Guoxing, Itak da ge, you guys are obviously exempted. I don't even mind being on call 24/7!)

Now that I'm more or less done with my ranting, I just can't help but realise that changing jobs really doesn't make a different to the amount of time I have in my life. Was just hit with the realisation that the person who seems to see me most, and to a certain extent, see the real me (or hear my weirdest blabbering) most is actually Shaun, rather than any of my closer friends. Perhaps cause I'm really consciously not allowing myself to whine too much to you all (yeah.. i know I still do despite me actively not letting you all in on a lot already). Come to think of it, Shaun really has to be careful, haha.. someday I might just have to kill-person-rid-mouth (translate into Chinese). Haha.. Still, don't worry, I've finally figured that in trying to make you guys proud of me, the other important thing is to be happy too, just like what GK or Itak da ge said when I asked whether I'm useless if I just gave up... I'm sure I'll be able to be successful at work and find the cheerful me (haha.. was suddenly reminded of nespray) again so that you guys can really really be proud of me.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

One baby step

Yup, it's one baby step towards my ultimate goal of making my most important friends proud of me. Seriously though, I'm beginning to wonder if I had said anything wrong to justify the pretty good outcome from the hearing today. Or maybe my ears were bad and the order wasn't what I thought I heard. Otherwise, why were they so surprised that I managed to get that order? Whatever, at least I didn't get scolded by the AR (who is really nice, and will probably be amongst my favourite, at least for now) and got more than 50% of the costs I asked for. =)

Oh, and my first reaction when I came out from chambers? To "announce" to my most important friends (ok, in the end more people knew, and I didn't sms some of the important people too, for eg. Itak da ge, cause I didn't want to bother them). Still, I hope it's just the beginning...

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On a side note, I really really detest people who borrow my books and refuse to return it. I may have known you for the longest time ever, but that doesn't mean that you can just happily ignore my previous questions on whether my book is with you. Perhaps you should ask poor Calvin how I react when people borrow my things and not have the decency to return it on their own accord. Especially when the book I lent you is not cheap and it's MY book. Bothering me for other things is not going to make me anymore please, especially after the amount of time wasted and MY BOOK! (ok, I think I've emphasised my book sufficiently)

Oh yes, although it feels reassuring to see the phrase "fang fang" again, I'm still undecided whether to respond. Perhaps I've become more hardened, or I've totally given up on you, still, give me some time to decide whether to respond, k?

Sunday, May 24, 2009

You know how much I hate to find out about people only through some other means?

You changed your jobs but refuse to admit it right? Why? I'm not stupid, I did a google search and confirmed my suspicion.

Know what? I am pissed. What's with the secretive behaviour these days? If you think you're very great, so be it. I can't even be bothered to talk to you anymore.
You can take a person out of Raffles, but you may not necessary take away the Rafflesian in her

Suddenly had that thought on my way back. For some (strange) reasons, I've never thought of myself having any Rafflesian trait.. Until on my way back home today.

I am competitive. At least in the face of things/people I don't particularly like. Which explains how even more competitive (and crazily stubborn) I've been lately. Doesn't look like it'll be abating any time soon though.

On the bright side, at least I can still say that I'm not an anomaly. At least I've some RGS trait in me. Good or bad? You judge.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Btw, if you ever read this, Brandon

Hope you're feeling better about your driving test!

Don't give up. I'm SURE you'll do fine the next time round. Just have more confidence in yourself, k? Besides, on the bright side, you'll get your licence before 21, unlike me (NO AUNTIE-ING!).. so cheer up and look ahead. I'm still waiting to go out for supper when you pass, k?
Males with English names beginning with "K"...

Yes, if it's you. Stay away.

Haha.

My sense of indifference just moved up another notch.

PS: Gary, I'm really sorry about this evening. I really really didn't mean to fly you kite. In fact, I was really looking forward to dinner today. Whatever it is, sorry.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Much Ado About Nothing

The topic has obviously nothing to do with the Shakespearean work, nor the play with Adrian Pang as the male lead (anyone wants to watch?). It's just a follow-up from 2 incoherent blog entries two nights ago, which obviously have been removed to maintain the sanity of this blog.

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How often would you tell someone not ultra close to you what you think exactly? Especially if it's to point out what you disagree with.

Being frank leads to two possible results, either(i)you don't get along as well or (ii) you become closer. For most cases, the former holds true. Just like today, I thought your actions were a lot more wary after what transpired the past few days. Rather than your usual more child-like self, I thought I detected the step-three-steps-back-and-keep-your-distance feel. Perhaps I'm just oversensitive, though I don't regret speaking (or rather smsing) my mind, somehow I think you would probably act more like your usual self if you had been kept in the dark.

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Insignificant events in life may sometimes end up being pretty significant in memory. For some reasons, I've been reminded of Mr Chai more than once this week. Can't really uncover my memory lapse for the earlier event, but at least for today, it was our chat in remote relation to the above that reminded me of Mr Chai (and Mr Lim too). If acquaintance-ship cannot survive the test of truth, then friendship can be described as a raw diamond, the more you polish, the better it gets. Somehow I would still believe that our numerous disagreements and cold wars in school did help us become better friends, or at least, make us annoy the hell out of each other less (then again, I wonder if it did. Haha) Still, those long winded letters of yesteryears will always be one of my most treasured items, even if they only go to show how boliao we were to disagree with every possible issue. But that's what makes friendship most real too, ie. not being afraid to be who you are.

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Frankly, I still don't think my outburst would have as positive an effect as it had with some of my most important friends. Perhaps I do regret a little about letting you in on what really pissed me off. Still, what's done's done, and there's nothing much I can do now, yeah? I'll just see how things turn out.