后青春期的诗

Finally. Something to look forward to, to get me through till lunch.

(photograph from omy.sg)

噢买尬 噢买尬
真的太久不见啦
我随时ok就等你电话

哭阿哭阿哭阿
哭到眼泪都乾啦
哭到海滩只剩下沙
整个世界只剩下
你听我说话
一直到天黑也不回家

混阿混阿混阿
混到天空都老啦
计画依然没有变化
剩下我们说的
神话梦话废话
就着样陪着我长大

噢买尬 噢买尬
这是一定要的啦
喝到挂唱到哑
笑到流泪哭到趴
噢买尬 噢买尬
真的太久不见啦
我随时ok就等你电话

巴黎铁塔东京铁塔
蛋塔金字塔
回忆慢慢积沙成塔
回忆回不去了
但你一起来了
一起到更远的未来吧

无猜无邪无私
无瑕的友情无价
你是买不到的奢华
天涯有天风景有风
浪花有花
再加上我有你就够啦

噢买尬 噢买尬
这是一定要的啦
喝到挂唱到哑
笑到流泪哭到趴
噢买尬 噢买尬
真的太久不见啦
我随时ok就等你电话
噢买尬 噢买尬
这是一定要的啦
喝到挂唱到哑
笑到流泪哭到趴
噢买尬 噢买尬
真的太久不见啦
我随时ok等你电话
老地方见等你电话
无时无刻等你的电话
我随时ok就等你电话

For some reason or other, some of the lyrics actually reminded me of some people. And for that reason, it overtook 突然好想你 to be my favourite song in the album.

Reveriez hates liars

If you did not do something, you should just admit it, rather than pretend that you've done something to cover up what you've not done. If anyone is actually considering signing up for anything with TR** group, I would advice you to think twice. Just imagine a personal trainer assuring you more than once that he had checked, and that your file is already with another branch. Then, you find out later, to your horror, that your file has actually been misplaced. When you confront him, he doesn't even apologise, and attempts to sweep it under the carpet. Or the various empty promises about calling back from their other staff.

In any case, well done, Keith. I'm so darn impressed by your "perfect" professionalism.

And yes, if any one is still wondering, I'm pissed. Super pissed.

Have a beautiful day!

Just saw Qiuting online, and realised how long it's been since we've last heard from each other. Somehow, just before she logged off, I suddenly remembered the phrase I used to use to end off my angel-mortal letters to her, and at the spur of the moment, I ended the conversation with "Have a beautiful day tomorrow!"

It's been about 9 years. Yet, everything just felt like yesterday. The M&Ms on Chinese New Year eve, the continuous stream of letters thereafter. More importantly, I still remember how my angel used to notice whether I was smiling and as a result, I made an even greater effort to keep the smile on my face.

Perhaps, like what I said to LiJia on Friday, certain friendships are not as easily erased. Koon was absolutely spot-on when he was so certain that I would turn up for JianPing's wedding, even though I wasn't even sure myself then. Perhaps it was cause Mr Tay knew my character better than I knew myself. Whatever the case, after the 7th phone call and a sprained ankle, I decided to go online just to tell Mr Chai that I would turn up for his wedding.

To a certain extent, I was glad I did. Or perhaps I am just easily 哄. For the sake of a particular sentence, I became definitive that even if I had anything on on that day itself, I would still cancel out on whoever/whatever it is, just so that I could turn up. So much for my resolution.

Perhaps it's apt that one ex CCA mate actually described me as 怪怪的. Certain things may seem so tiny and insignificant to others, yet they mean the whole world to me. Take for example my answer to LiJia's question on my favourite(?) birthday present. The first thing that came to my mind was just one particular sms. Or how I wouldn't mind having the opportunity to buy a particular senior lunch/dinner as my birthday present this year, just so that I can thank him personally after all these years.

Dinner with a close friend is always a relaxing affair. We may have lost quite a bit of our girl-ish gushing, but a lot of the contents of our chats remain timeless. In fact, I can so picture us chatting about the same topics ten years down the road, albeit with an even more matured slant (I hope?). Perhaps it's just me, but I noticed that no matter how much one has supposedly grown up, one still more or less behaves the way one behaves when you've just became friends. Good or bad? I don't know. But the sense of familarity is always welcome in a society of ever changes.

Desserts at 2am:Dessertbar
Totally forgot that Ryan actually paid for the desserts. Next time it'll be on me, k Lijia?

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Finally, a picture from the exhibition at Suntec:

Despite my non-presentable ankle and a potentially boring afternoon, the exhibition was interesting only because I had Shuyun around. Too bad it'll be our first and last time working on something together huh?

Blessing in Disguise?

I can so imagine "Hong Lim Park" describing someone who finds a silver lining despite spraining her ankle as a weirdo.

Then again, how often do you have friends volunteering to bring you ice, or nagging you to see a doctor/sinseh? Better still, a friend who voluntary goes with you to see the sinseh, runs off to draw money to pay for a part of your medical bill when you don't have enough cash, and then takes a cab back and drops you off at your place?

Well, I'm proud to say that I have such friends! Especially Mr Chan for ensuring that I saw a doctor, and then paid for almost everything this evening. Somehow, I don't think you were really that tired to need to take a cab home right? Still, thank you, my dearest favourite Mr Chan!

And since I'm a weirdo, a simple sprain can actually bring back good memories. Like how Mr Chai would carry my bag and Mr Tay, my file and how a bunch of my classmates would set off for class way earlier before the end of recess/lunch just so that they could walk at my pace. Sounds silly, but these are the simple things that make one feel ultra loved and make ankle sprains not that bad a thing (not that I want it lah!)

Before - Done by doctor

After - Done by me

Why does mine look more like a dumpling? And that's after wrapping and unwrapping for almost 15 minutes. =(

雨过天晴

Barely. Still, a bit of ice-cream and a dose of concern did a bit to cheer me up.

Besides, for once, the True group has someone decent to answer my phone calls and to deal with whatever I wanted resolved. My gut feel says this Shaun guy must be from Planet Fitness, simply cause he's not as annoying, inefficient and incompetent as everyone else I've dealt with. For eg, the lady I had to deal with all these while (she's as efficient as the furball, in my humble opinion) or the consultants (who are better at talking, then getting things done, in my own humble opinion again). Anyway, to cut a long story short, I'm impressed for once.

Anyway, here's something that made me smile when I got back from lunch:

原来...

最不相信友情的人是自己.

失去后才能去真正懂得去珍惜和拥有

From high olympus flows to us the glory
On us the sacred fire descends
Rise sisters rise the world is all before ye
Fear not to grasp what fortunes sends*

A little while the sun shines high above us
And youth's elixir fills our veins
The magic fire that moves that gods to love us
The fire which the will attains*

So heart to heart we'll scale the heights of learning
No mean desires our day shall shame
Wholehearted, true, with pride and ardour burning
On sisters, on to life and fame*

* Sisters in learning and sisters at heart
Life lies before us, here's luck to the start

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In case any one had to wonder, I didn't turn up for the 10th year gathering today. Even though the bus I took went past the all so familiar building, and when it did, the all so familiar feeling of standing under the hot sun, waiting for the bus at the bus stop after school came flooding back. The magic of the first time walking through the school gate, and past the Athena statute remained clear, just like the memory of how we bumped into Meisi on 21 December 1994 when we were reporting to our soon-to-be school.

Ten years on, I'm still not ready to face my ex-classmate/schoolmate. Ironically, despite all that fierceness/bitchiness, I still lack the confidence to feel less self conscious amongst a whole bunch of high flyers.

If I had the chance to choose again, would Dunman High have been a better choice? Or could I have worked harder, be less self conscious, make more effort to be sociable so that secondary school would not just be a memory?

Then again, things change with the flux of time. People whom you were once close to may now be people you don't really want to meet. For instance, Joanne. Or just strangers. For instance, another friend of mine. Gek Koon's certainty that I would turn up for a classmate's event made it even clearer that what would have been a given years ago may not be so now. Just like in Physics, when two objects move in tandem, no change is detected. On the contrary, when two objects have different velocity, it is almost impossible not to detect the difference.

Still, I'm thankful still for friends who remain the world to me even over the years. Just having Itak da ge and Koon online last Wednesday was sufficient to cheer me up immensely, and make me bounce/jump/skip everywhere. We may have more or less lost touch, just like how it took me a year before I realised Itak is now a teacher, but it doesn't make me feel any less warm just by your presence online. 时间能让事情兜兜转转， 但兜兜转转过后仍会发现避风港始终屹立不倒。也许，在内心深处的一角，我也永远都不希望失去这些我所谓温暖的阳光吧。

PS: 正因为朋友是缺一不可的，Guohui, 你可要早日康复哦! 加油！

Was it just me or did 五月天 sound flat today?

For once, I'm impressed by Mediacorp. Despite my less than zero interest in Superband, I still sat through almost two hours (I skipped the earlier parts) just to wait for their 宣传大使 to perform. As predicted, they were the 压轴 performers. Still, I thought they sounded flat today, and at one point, I thought 阿信 sang out of tune. In fact, I felt Beyond did a better job, and wished they had sang more, or at least include their 光辉岁月 instead. After their performance, I'm actually slightly even more tempted to watch their concert. Gosh..

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Just like how 五月天 seemed off colour to me on tv today, the places I went for dinner last night was slightly disappointing too. The food at Yumeya felt different, and not as breathtaking. Similarly, when we "migrated" over to the restaurant I went with Mr Tan just a few weeks back, we were not that impressed either. First, we ended up in the bar area, since their air conditioning was down at the restaurant part. The grilled food was served cold too. Still, the worse was the lobster that wasn't fully cooked. When it came back to us, the waitress from China took pains to explain that the lobster had been changed, but couldn't come up with a less lame excuse of how the lobster meat no longer filled the entire lobster shell. Oh well.