Real age vs Behaviour

As I was walking home from the MRT station today, a thought just crossed my mind.

This afternoon, someone voiced his disbelief that I am 21+ this year, reason being that I do not have the 21 year old air around me.

Yet, just not long ago, someone else said I'm more matured than others my age.

So, which is it? a big kid? or a overaged youth?

Interestingly, this actually made me realise that my behaviour is such a blatant depiction of the subconcious me, the one that loves to be doted upon yet at the same time wary enough to protect oneself.

Why do I say that?

The ones whom I behave like a kid to.. Almost all of them are older than me, and do behave in such a way that I deem them as older brothers.. People whom I feel comfortable trusting.. and in front of them, I'm actually the true-est of myself, the big kid that I longed to be, but that I couldn't really show..

On the other hand, I only act more matured on occasions where I don't get to be a little kid either because of the environment.. or the people..

Inverse Proportionality

Just in case anyone is interested, here's my less than ideal grades.

LLA4024 AVIATION LAW & POLICY C
LLA4088 BUSINESS & FINANCE FOR LAWYERS B
LLA4100 TOPICS IN COPYRIGHT & DESIGNS C
LLB4069 LAW OF INSURANCE B

Somehow, this is the best I've ever done in my 3 years in law school, yet, I don't feel one bit happy. Firstly, I've always thought my business & finance was good enough for an A, yet I didn't get it.. neither did my aviation get the B i so wanted, after all my preparation for Warsaw and Montreal 1999 Convention. Of course, I do deserve the C that I got for Designs Law.. In fact, I think George Wei is super nice to have given me a C, judging from the crap I turn out. But I guess much as I like George Wei as a tutor, perhaps it's time for me to take a break from any IP stuff..

So, why did I use this title today?

Couldn't help but notice that my studying efforts are inversely proportional to my grades. Last sem, I spent all of my time on Tax Planning and later, Evidence, yet, I ended up doing less than ideal for both. Better still, I did awfully for evidence. Yet, for my other 8 credit module, IP, I studied for 1 day (that includes the numerous lectures that I skipped) and secured a 'B'..

This time, again, my efforts were all focused on aviation, so much so that even Weiling couldn't understand why I sacrifice my 8 credit insurance just for aviation. For all the enthusiasm in that module, a 'C' grade is awfully disappointing.. but, oh well..

Couldn't help but notice how this applies to many other aspects in real life too. Being extra nice to others doesn't guarantee that you would get the same type of treatment too.. Often, we tend to take for granted, those who are so much nicer to us, so much so that we end up offering shoddy treatment..

Perhaps secondary schools in Singapore should focus more on inverse functions instead of direct functions... hmm..