Sleepiness on a slack Monday afternoon

Seems like the first time I'm typing an entry in this blog during office hours.. There's really nothing much to do now, after I've read online Straits Times and New Paper, and even TKL's opinions on some website.. Yes, as one can tell, I'm really THAT bored..

Come to think of it, I've really toned down a lot by the time I'm doing attachment here. No more boliao questions like "Do you want me to help you sharpen your pencils?" Instead, I merely ask for work and if there's none, I'll just attempt to keep myself occupied.

Is this a sign of burn-out? I don't know, but I doubt so. Interestingly, a friend just commented about the lack of drive to get up and go to work in the morning. Sometime after lunch today, someone sms-ed me to ask about my previous attachment and the gist of it was how she didn't feel like going to work in a tiny cramp place.

Tiny and cramp? I guess people have different perceptions. No doubt, my first impression of that place was tiny.. as in it was really small.. Yet the feeling it gave me was some homely laid-back office.. not unlike the ones I've pictured in story books.. The feeling was just like a sleepy little place where everything was just.. comfy..

Actually, was very tempted to comment about the fact since she had the chance to see the place before she agreed to do the attachment, there isn't any reason why she should look down on the place even before she starts. I mean, if you detest a place even before you start, then you are never going to like it.. right? Perhaps I myself do not have to right to say it too.. It's so much easier to tell others off and then whine and complain when you meet with the same situation, I guess..

Yet, that draws me to another point.. does size of the place you work at matter? Read in a magazine last week that it does, at least to a law firm.. But, what if it's just deciding where to do pupillage at? Doesn't how one feel matter equally too?

Someone was vehemently disagreeing about this point last Saturday. Yes, I know.. there is no doubt that large firms do give pupils greater exposure and the scale of work is something that small firms would probably encounter. Yet, somehow, the usually non-confident me simply doesn't feel comfortable in a large environment. I'll just feel highly self conscious and be super quiet.. compare it to being in a small place, where even though i'll still feel a bit uncomfortable, I can still warm up to people more quickly and be more bubbly or at least dare to speak up.. In this case, shouldn't I just hole myself up in some smaller environment and be able to learn better, compared to being in a place where I get the chance to be exposed to a lot of matters, yet I don't feel comfortable at all, and not dare to voice out anything? It's so much like the girl I was in sec school compared to jc.. Even my mum thought I looked more cheerful in photos in jc.. especially with all the smiles..

So, should I take the 'by right' route or the 'by left' one? and if 'by left', what should the conclusion for the previous paragraph be? Hmmm....