Doubt the topic makes much sense, but what I am trying to put across is basically that sometimes, what we perceive may turn out very different.
I guess I was truly affected by the email I received from CC last night. For 2+ years, her lack of reply gave a glimmer of hope that I could at least try out something else before I truly start my bond. Not that I happily ignored the silence, given that I had sent reminders to no avail. And that executive I hate, one particular CT, had to call me at about the same time as that email was sent to say that they required certain other documents to evaluate my request. What nonsense, or rather, HUGE LIARS! Why? Don't have to guts to say so earlier? Or have you been procrastinating way too much? And the best part was, that idiot CC had to end off her last email which confirmed the start date with "Happy Lunar New Year". What the hell. Do you think I'm in that good a mood given that I have to see your face soon? And yes, I still have to hold my temper and not send a "Do have a Horrible Lunar New Year" to her as well as CT. Yes, I really do HATE them so.
The person whom I doubted would reply did after I fell asleep. Ok, the sms did wake me up, I read the reply, but couldn't be bothered and went back to sleep. I simply couldn't help but recall a similar scenario with another friend some time in October 2000. It takes so much luck to say the correct thing at the correct time.
Thankfully, I recalled another person to turn to before I turned in (Not that I could since I was still basically tearing non-stop then). No doubt it meant more expensive sms, but it really didn't matter. As usual, Itak 大哥 would be able to give one of the most reassuring and encouraging words. 谢谢 Itak 大哥! (Which reminds me, I have NOT written the CNY card for Itak and Darmaji. Oh well, it seems I'll have to make do with sms-ing Itak on that day itself. So much of a nice gesture)
Actually, there's another person I ought to thank, for without his smses, I doubt I would have been able to fall asleep last night. I have to admit though, the brat in me refused to see the logic behind the smses and chose to be irritated at first. But as I re-read one of the smses a second time, somehow, miraculously, the stubborn me began to see his point a little. In spite of my refusal to admit it, it really did stop the overworked tear gland tap.
I guess I regretted telling this person anything from the start. It is quite amusing how each of us is programmed to be able to trust certain people even without much interaction with them. But I guess typing too much also made me more apprehensive. To the point that I really didn't want to see him around Raffles Place any time soon. But I'm no longer a kid, so I can't exactly be acting so childishly right? Eventually, I did meet up with this person for lunch and I must say, lunch was a good diversion for my mind, thanks to my good lunch companion. Mental note though, next time round, I'll make sure it'll be MY treat, maybe at the place where we were supposed to go to initially. In any case, I'll just make sure this guy does not behave just like Adrian (who's utterly incorrigible). Which reminds me, it's been a while since I've heard/seen Adrian right? And it's been an even longer while since I've heard from Mr Ng!
On another note though, I'm beginning to think that I'll just gain weight before CNY! Had dinner with Qi and Koon at Marina Square later at night. Of course, dinner would be great whatever food we had, simply cause I had great company. Just as what I would usually typed, it's not the food that matters, but the companions. And being with Qi and Koon allowed me to just speak my mind (at least more or less so) and it just felt even much better thereafter.
And so, that's how my initially-not-so-good day ended up much much better. I'm suddenly reminded of another friend's blog where he talked about a not-so-ideal start of the year. Like what I've commented, that start could also mean things would get better as the year progresses. (In any case, you can always try to remember that your year is over, it's my turn to supposedly have a not-too-good year huh?) And just as what a quote from some TV drama (I can't remember which one anyway) when things become really really bad, the only way they can go is to get better (Note: This is my translation, you can choose to decide whether my translation is accurate --> sorry, I really couldn't help but be reminded of an idiotic partner) So this year will get better, yahz?
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