失去后才能去真正懂得去珍惜和拥有
From high olympus flows to us the glory
On us the sacred fire descends
Rise sisters rise the world is all before ye
Fear not to grasp what fortunes sends*
A little while the sun shines high above us
And youth's elixir fills our veins
The magic fire that moves that gods to love us
The fire which the will attains*
So heart to heart we'll scale the heights of learning
No mean desires our day shall shame
Wholehearted, true, with pride and ardour burning
On sisters, on to life and fame*
* Sisters in learning and sisters at heart
Life lies before us, here's luck to the start
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In case any one had to wonder, I didn't turn up for the 10th year gathering today. Even though the bus I took went past the all so familiar building, and when it did, the all so familiar feeling of standing under the hot sun, waiting for the bus at the bus stop after school came flooding back. The magic of the first time walking through the school gate, and past the Athena statute remained clear, just like the memory of how we bumped into Meisi on 21 December 1994 when we were reporting to our soon-to-be school.
Ten years on, I'm still not ready to face my ex-classmate/schoolmate. Ironically, despite all that fierceness/bitchiness, I still lack the confidence to feel less self conscious amongst a whole bunch of high flyers.
If I had the chance to choose again, would Dunman High have been a better choice? Or could I have worked harder, be less self conscious, make more effort to be sociable so that secondary school would not just be a memory?
Then again, things change with the flux of time. People whom you were once close to may now be people you don't really want to meet. For instance, Joanne. Or just strangers. For instance, another friend of mine. Gek Koon's certainty that I would turn up for a classmate's event made it even clearer that what would have been a given years ago may not be so now. Just like in Physics, when two objects move in tandem, no change is detected. On the contrary, when two objects have different velocity, it is almost impossible not to detect the difference.
Still, I'm thankful still for friends who remain the world to me even over the years. Just having Itak da ge and Koon online last Wednesday was sufficient to cheer me up immensely, and make me bounce/jump/skip everywhere. We may have more or less lost touch, just like how it took me a year before I realised Itak is now a teacher, but it doesn't make me feel any less warm just by your presence online. 时间能让事情兜兜转转, 但兜兜转转过后仍会发现避风港始终屹立不倒。也许,在内心深处的一角,我也永远都不希望失去这些我所谓温暖的阳光吧。
PS: 正因为朋友是缺一不可的,Guohui, 你可要早日康复哦! 加油!