ReVeRiEz iN tHe MoOd fOr bLoGgInGAlas, since the REAL pupillage started, this tiny area in the vast world of the internet has in no time become neglected. So many things have happened, so much to say, yet, when I sit down to type, I end up typing nothing
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Haven't exactly made much mention of the place I am doing pupillage at. When I made up my mind to dump a previous place, I was all prepared to end up here actually. Which isn't too bad, given the fact that I do like the people around.
Frankly, I AM really very thankful to LSP and Christopher Chong for taking me in. Everything was so last minute, yet they still agreed to let me in. For some unknown reason, the moment I saw Christopher's name beside the words 'Pupil Master', I just smiled to myself. Perhaps it was the sense of familarity that put me a little at ease. At the same time, it gave me some kind of unknown pressure to work too. Afterall, without Christopher and LSP, I would not have made a nice transition from one place to another in such a short period of time. And there was always the thought of not disgracing Vincent Yeo too.
Sometimes, I feel totally lost. For the first week especially, I was highly enthusiastic about work. Perhaps it was just after my short stinct at A. Law Corp. Though it felt a bit busy, still, I was really really happy. Then over the weekend, I sat back and reviewed. What on earth was I thinking when I was so eager to work? Why was I so eager to please, with a tiny part in me hoping, I mean fighting to get retained, when I knew this was all but impossible? Afterall, around this time next year, I'll be moving over to the office at City Hall doing things that I will not be doing here. So what on earth was I trying to prove?
That realisation hit me rather strongly. It's always so much easier to go with the flow. Once you stop and think, you'll realise that it's so much easier to get lost in following others. Perhaps I really do want to work here still. I am happy, very much indeed. Or perhaps I just wanted to pay back their favour, by proving that I am not just some extra baggage. Or perhaps it was also my admiration for my pupil master that propelled me forward, wanting to prove myself. But the fact that this may all be just a short dream does throw me off-track often enough. 5 years in Income, and what do I do next? Regret? Perhaps a little, but then again, without Income, there'll be no Vincent Yeo, and probably no Rodyk in my life either. Oh well..
Dropped by Income last Friday since Mr Yeo's birthday would be this Monday. Somehow felt quite at ease in Legal. Did I do attachments there a bit too often? Still, it was nice to have seen V. Yeo and Wai Mun.
Wai Mun asked how my pupil master was. Somehow, I gave my usual 'Ok' reply, to which she asked in a jest 'Only ok?' Frankly, that's NOT my intended answer. I guess if you ask me now, I would say I really think my pupil master is superb and that I am really really glad to have him as my pupil master. He's analytical yet able to see the whole picture, up there yet still approachable, calm and poise yet with some temperaments. At first, I was really not used to him suddenly talking to himself (I presume) loudly. Then later, I sort of got used to it. Sometimes, I really wonder why my seat is directly opposite his. So that he can check whether I'm doing my work? But somehow his presence is highly beneficial to my work rate. Somehow, my pupil master is Sooo brilliant, I just don't want to be too dumb.
Was just reminded of my MSN chat with Priscilla and her mention of Adrian Heng describing himself as a shrimp that would be eaten by a small fish which would in turn be eaten by a larger fish (ok, something to that point) Interesting analogy, though I simply beg to differ. It's interesting how Adrian seems to be often associated with Christopher (or at least to me). I can still remember their names written beside each other on the phonelist at Income (something to that extent, at least). Yet, this time round, I realised they aren't that similar. For one, Christopher leaves a goal-getter image, whereas Adrian feels much more lay-back. If Christopher can be described as a calm albeit punctuated occasionally with his sudden short temperaments, Adrian would be the calm and accomodating kind of person. Yet, both ARE gentlemen. In fact, I mentioned the other day at TCC that my pupil master feels so much like a daddy, or at least what I imagined a nice daddy should be.
Too bad Adrian is no longer in Rodyk. It would have been so much more interesting to work with him too! For the record though, I did not purposely searched for his name on the seating plan. I was merely curious as to whether the few people I know were salaried partners or equity ones. And I didn't see his name on either list even though I was certain that he IS, I mean was, a partner. Wahz.. but I did regret mentioning to him that his name wasn't in the seating plan. It sounded totally like I am a stalker! And I'm NOT!
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The effects of the whole range of medicine is getting to me. Better turn in so that I can get in earlier to finish what I owed my pupil master!
Interestingly, I realised that it wasn't too difficult disclosing more matters than what I normally would too. Don't know why, but at that moment, I couldn't help but compare how different it was with another supposedly close friend. Itak da ge was simply very much like a da ge I could trust.. and I could just speak my mind freely and matter-of-factly, without worrying that whatever I had uttered would turn into a weapon used to hurt me later on. 
Really couldn't help but recall what popped into my mind again not too long ago. It seems that as time flies pass, the friends that I treasure most are still those I've met before Uni.. (okiez.. with the exception of a really small tiny minority) They're the ones who can still brighten my day just by their presence even on the gloomiest days. They're the ones who I would be willing to do anything for, just as many of them have become my pillars of support over the years. And I'll always be indebted to them, for providing their rays of sunshine..
