Deja vu

"u still alive ah.." That was Jason's first comment online. Eh.. Mr Teh, do I sound so lousy to you?

Thanks to long bean, I had the experience that I've not had since leaving GLC. For some strangest reason, working past midnight in the office after more than a year energised me once again, and it felt like I was time travelling back to the dreaded Muhlbauer days, preparing the Bundle of Documents for his royal highness. Long bean may have successfully burnt my evening, but hopefully it'll ignite the long dormant spark of hardworkingness in me.

These few weeks haven't been exactly the best, what with 外公 being hospitalised, then Reich's dad... and then an ex colleague's phone call (which luckily turned out to be a false alarm). Isn't it amusing that no matter how strong we make ourselves out to be, humans are still, at the end of the day, at the mercy of fate? And it's not only those who have been struck down, but those around are affected to. Well, whatever it is, since I can't be of any help.. I guess I can only say, "Reichmann, Michelle, jia you!!!"

The irony of all things is that, despite what would have seemed like 2 bad weeks, it really wasn't as draining as it seems thanks to the presence of friends, both new and old. Was somehow reminded of JianPing's annoyingly fave phrase in jc.. yes, the one about how friends cannot be made after sec school. I'm glad that despite my insecure nature, I still chose not to take heed of what Mr Chai said. Foolish or not, only time will tell.

On a side note, I wonder if dreams have any significance. How is it ever possible that one can dream of people / things that are not really existing in their lives? Hmm.. or was my dream last night a subconscious reminder of what nespray wrote years ago.. to speak up? Even then, it's a bit late isn't it? Haha..

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PS: In my mindless blabbering and possibly another subconscious show of insecurity (well, to ensure that whoever's my friend doesn't regret later on), I think I "mumbled" something overboard earlier. If I ended up giving you the impression that I don't really like meeting up with you, I really didn't mean it. Perhaps cause you are really way too nice , so I didn't want you to get conned (remember, I told you I can be quite a bitch) and regret it later. But yes, in any case, even if I don't say so, I really do enjoy chatting / hanging out with you too. I'll try to kick the habit of saying mean things that I don't really mean, but in the meantime, the sweetest uncle can always bear with xiao mei mei's behaviour for the time being, right? =)