Thank you, Mr Tay!!!

很想给你写封信
告诉你这里的天气
昨夜的那一场电影
还有我的心情
很想给你写封信
却只是想想而已
我已经不能肯定
你是不是还会关心

(Disclaimer: Whilst the song does not has absolutely no relation to this entry, I thought this paragraph suitably links to the first few paras below..)

A few weeks ago, whilst the study was being spring cleaned, I chanced upon my memory box and opened the "pandora box". Not that I really needed to re-read them. The postcards / letters that meant something to me, I'd probably have already memorised the contents by heart. Staring at the various handwritings, it felt as though I had momentarily time-travelled back to the full grey uniform era, where life revolved round surviving one round after another of common tests and exams. And I missed the letters from that "bygone era" and mostly the feeling of being around those people back then.

It's been 10 years. I've almost forgotten how some of us were like back then. Had the momentary impulse to write a long X'mas card to each of my frequent postcards/letters/post-it notes senders/receipients. What would your response be? Will I hear from anyone?

Perhaps despite trying to harden myself and grow up over the years, a part of me refused to go with the flow and hid itself, so that I could revert back to that kid whenever I am in the company of the VVVIPs. Perhaps that was why Caroline said I need to act more matured, in a manner befitting my profession. But then, it's really because I am comfortable around certain people, that's why I could let my guard down and let the tried-to-hide hidden part surface.

Actually, meeting up with Honghui several Saturdays ago made me realise, there may be more friends you pick up along the way and maybe feel comfortable with but not all can trigger the happy button within you just by their presence.

When I asked for a mug this year, I really meant any kind of mug, even if, as Gek Koon said, a cheap mug from some Sweddish store. Just like what I've said to Gilson before, I'm the easiest and hardest to get anything for, depending on your importance to me. To you, it may just be a normal, not good looking mug. To me, having a mug from one of my VVVIP friends in my office is a source of comfort when things get down and a reminder that I need to strive harder, to shine more brilliantly so that no matter where any of you are, you can still be proud enough to say "eh.. that's my friend!".

But then, like I said, it doesn't matter what you got for me. Cos I still LOVE the soft toy you bought this time round! And yes, it's effective in calming me down when I hug it and lean against it.. And yes, I don't throw soft toys to test whether they're breakable. Grrr... Seriously, did you realise you've been giving me a soft toy each year? Haha..

But like I said, my favourite present from you is still our meeting up. Despite my 嘴硬-ness about avoiding people in December, I still relish the non-sms conversations and/or simply the real-life presence of those important ones. And yes, that includes the other person whom I've not really chatted with in a significantly long while and whom I was chatting with on Friday night. Yes, stop looking around, that's you, Mr Tan. =)