Until I talk to you...

Do not talk to me, cause I may not really want to talk to you. I haven't figured out who's my friend and who's not.

Just as.. when I say I want to return something to you, it doesn't mean that I want to meet you again. It's just that I need to return something and I do not want to owe people something for way too long, even if you say I don't have to. Frankly, unless I have to be somewhere near your place, I really do not want to see you at all.

Grace asked if I'm alright. Frankly, no. Just that I don't have the habit of typing 'Yes' when asked. After being absolutely furious at work yesterday (I hate ALL Rainbow section staff) I'm now in anger stage 2, that is, absolutely no feeling. Or rather, cannot be bothered to feel.

Someone once sent me an sms when I was really really down.. He said something to the point that if I really want to practice someday, I can always break the bond and there's no point feeling frustrated. Somehow, when I was clearing my sms inbox (I normally don't.. until the phone memory is full..) I saw that and felt a teeny weeny bit better. Thanks ar..

I really do not need anyone to tell me that feeling unhappy is not right. I just want some form of comfort. But interestingly, different people have different ways of comforting, yet, I'll only accept some, even if they're basically saying the same thing. Biased me huh?