Sleepyhead

You know you are ultra sleepy when your friend tells you something and you reply with a "What day is today?" I didn't even notice that there was a missed call from him. Sorry sorry. Then again, you didn't reply my sms that day too, so we're quits! =p

Lunched with Chloe, Steph, Shyen Sook, Clarissa today. That made me realise the word "retention" is occupying most of my fellow peers' minds these days. Perhaps I'm just impatient, I thought I was a tad irritated when Clarissa kept asking duhz questions, like her constant question of "what's considered screwing up?". But Steph mentioned something related to another firm that pipped my curiousity (since she didn't mention names) but also made me had that split-second worry about another friend. Oh well, I'm sure I was only over-worrying and things would turn out fine.

Even though our conversation appeared to suggest otherwise, I'm quite sure Beatrice is quite worried about retention too. Sometimes, it's not so much about whether we want something badly or not, but rather, it just doesn't feel good being rejected.

Come to think of it, if only Mr Yeo didn't intervene, things might have been very different. Somehow, even though I am grateful for his help, I thought some actions were uncalled for. In a way, I do feel quite paiseh at least towards Mr Marini. I mean, that was a really nice offer and I think I would have been happy there. Though it's long over, somehow I still feel rather apologetic to this day.

Talking about work, another pupil just joined today, and he just had to be Mr SR's buddy. Oh well, who cares. I'm just glad to have volunteered to do work for Terence yesterday, though it's also the reason why I've been losing sleep since yesterday. Too long periods of no work makes my brain work slower, and somehow, I just couldn't find relevant research results. Yet, Terence was still nice about it, and I quite like the guided discussions too. Of course, that also adds to the pressure since I just have this voice telling me repeatedly that I must do a good job because it's work from Terence (unlike some other people whom I don't like).

Went for a chat about something somewhere yesterday. I guess I'm still not comfortable typing about it. Can't remember who said this but sometimes clearer but not as nice results may be better than murky and possibly better results. At least there's no uncertainty for the former.