Thursday, April 14, 2005
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Last day of Tamil lesson. Last time having to take 151 all the way to the interchange and then climb up to Dr Thinappan's office. Last time having lessons with such a small class.
Carolyn is flying off tomorrow. As usual, our class of 5 is still not in full force. Lessons were different today. I mean, there were no lessons, just some sort of a gathering, a chat. Don't know why but there is some tinge of.. not wanting all of this to end? Time is just flying by too fast for me to grasp.
Not that my Tamil proficiency has been any better. The only stuff I can say with confidence is probably what I want, Hi, and Thank you. Not very good considering exams are round the corner. Noticed that my grades for assignments are the lowest. Once again, the ever-jealous me came into play. But I could blame no one, yah? Simply because over confidence, or should I say foolishness, led me to juggle too many things, thereby spreading myself too thin. Should I have listened to well-meant advice from Koon and Daniel? Perhaps so. Do I regret? Perhaps not.
Unbelievable as it seems, I've always loved going to school since young. Remember the times when I would dream of school during the holidays? Or the fact that I would practise the piano simply because of the threat of not allowing me to go to school anymore if I quit piano? All these may sound comical, but yes, that was my affinity to school. No idea when that suddenly dissipated. Beginning of uni? Perhaps so. Perhaps the lack of confidence gradually made me withdraw away again.
Still, these 2 sems have made me a cheerier one. The extra workload means walking out of law faculty. And yes, it's somewhat like going out into the world, you get to see so much more. Somehow, the slightly more confident feeling is something that I would not have found in law school. Then again, who knows?
Last lesson for Tamil. My regret at not mastering the language deepened. Perhaps I should have started earlier? Perhaps I should not have done another sem? Well, that's all the past now. These memories will leave with me, as I step out of NUS, out of being a law student, and into the world. Someday, perhaps, my mastery of the language would be something that I would be proud of. Hopefully.

Dr Thinappan's room, ie. our usual classroom
Tea sponsored by Dr Thinappan
Gals from Tamil 2 (Notice all of us had either some red or pink on!)
Friday, April 08, 2005
Sounds pretty duhz huh? But I guess friends are those whom you'll subconsciously accomodate.. There are things that some do which would irritate you no less, yet, when friends do the same, you do not get as irritated..
Throughout this sem, I tried very hard not to be late for my Genes and Society class. There was one point where I would just skip the class if I was going to be late. Afterall, Dr Low has this weird thing about letting people move through the middle, but it's so embarassing to get one entire row to shift in just for your sake.
Well, today, I was late for class. And it was through no fault of mine, really. Someone said he'll be off for 15 minutes, and I calculated that to mean that I'll still have plenty of time to get to Science Faculty. Yet, that someone came back only 5 minutes before my lecture was supposed to start. I can picture myself blowing up at some other people (names not mentioned in case they chance upon this blog and realise it) and I'm so super proud of myself that I didn't get any bit irritated at all. Just imagine, I could actually say 'Late then late lohz'... Come to think of it, only a handful can actually try that and not irritate/anger me at all.. Oops, does that once again prove how short tempered I am? =)
In any case, you should consider yourself lucky, Mr Chai.. hahaha...
Still, feeling happy to have met up with an old (long time plus OLDer than me.. wahahahah) friend =)
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Photograph with the President

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Not too difficult to guess why we wound up there. Yes, it was for our Tamil module and there we were at a Hindu temple at Farrer Park. Dr Thinappan said the President was interested in meeting us. Oh well, we are an interesting breed I guess. But it is admirable that his excellency is an advocate for lifelong learning too. Who would have guessed that at his age, he is taking Tamil lessons from.. who else but Dr Thinappan? That makes us fellow students huh? Still, his command of the language is truly admirable. To think that we were forced to reply in Tamil. Sounds so Dr Thinappan.
Friday, February 04, 2005

Finally, a meetup with TMC people
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Yes, time flies. 4 years plus years have just zoomed past.
Have I ever regretted wasting money going for TMC diploma classes? Not really. Those were fun times. And the friendships made were great. Just that each of us had our own paths, and these paths diverge further as we move along.
Still. It was great, really.
Friday, December 31, 2004
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Cebu Trip Gathering
The first of some of the gatherings I had within the year. To think that this is our first gathering since JC1. A bit pathetic huh? But the turnout wasn't that bad, considering it was only decided a few days before, though it could have been better, considering the number of last minute back-outs.
Anyway, back to the photo
Back: Sijie, Huihui, Jini
Front: "Brother" Adrian, ME!!, Lizhen, "Grandfather" Kok Sing
To think that all of us couldn't forget Sharon Phua.. Haha.. Seems like notorious people stay in memories much longer..
Tamil Class
Of course I shall NOT name the people in the photo since I've still got no idea what some of their names are. Actually only one. Haha.. but still, better not.
Anyway, Tamil lessons were fun, other than having tormenting homework. Imagine putting in the entire Sunday night rushing Tamil homework. But I guess I don't regret taking it, despite my B.
PA Policy Studies Lunch sponsored by our director
Back: Thenesh, our director Sion Yoong, Jianlin, Wanjing
Front: Crystal, Me, Claire, Zheyi. (Absent: Yude)
Lunch at Marche. To think I was there a 2nd time in less than 24 hours after having gone there the night before with last year's VSA camp people.
Somehow, don't know what made me join PA after having thought of it in year 1. Remembered that was what Sion Yoong asked me when he first called me to turn up for a meeting. I mean, a year 3 wanting to join?
But I don't regret joining though. Despite getting irritated by a certain person, overall, the memory was still not bad. The really occasional meetings, the people, the discussion, Wanjing and Jianlin's 'bickering'.. Not to mention the final Lunchtime Forum at Munchie Monkey with Dr Vivian Balakrishnan, Dr Maliki and Ms Penny Low (I hope I rem her name correctly) as guests.
Friday, December 24, 2004
Couldn't help recalling a phrase to that extent in 'Fly Me to Polaris'.
Couldn't help thinking how true that phrase is, well, at least to me. Regardless of how messy things turn out here, it always feels good to have people to turn to. And I must say, it really feels ultra nice that a brat can get so much attention whenever she is down.
Still pondering whether to go Shanghai during the first week of Jan. Quite interested in the itinery. But that'll mean leaving sis alone at home with a certain person. Even though he likes her 100 times more than me, somehow, you never know how a insane person reacts. If this person has the guts to curse people day in day out (so much like his mum), tell people to attempt 'sky-diving' without that parachute and perform his regular antics, I don't feel safe leaving my sis here. But, mum seems highly keen on that, and wants company to go. I don't know.
Results out at 1pm on 24th Dec. That's a few hours later. I'm beginning to have butterflies in my stomach. Please... no 'D's... more 'B's.. *prays HARD* I need better grades to aim for bigger bucks so that I can have my own apartment (hopefully a house), go overseas(hopefully HK) for studies and then work. (Just had another 'live' reminder of the importance of money, how important it is never to get married if the saying that your husband would resemble your dad is true...)
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Went to grandparents' place today. Apparently, my grandmother had gone shopping in KL with an aunt, leaving my grandpa alone at home. To think that my mum didn't even know when she called yesterday. But grandfather seemed quite happy to have company, his face lit up when we were there, and looked a bit down when my mum and I went out shopping for a while. And he actually went out to buy 1kg worth of durians and a chicken just because my mum and I were visiting. Somehow, despite what he said, I still don't believe he took his lunch. When I went out and packed some xiao long bao and jiao zi back to force him to eat, he looked like he enjoyed the xiao long bao a lot, even though he was commenting to my mum about how ex it was. Somehow, I felt quite handicapped by my incapability to speak Teochew. I mean, even though I can understand 3/4 of what he says, I can merely reply in Chinese. Perhaps it's high time I engage a Teochew tutor. Anyone keen on taking up the post? I promise I'll be an obedient student, yah?
Anyway, back to the topic. Thought of this topic on my way to my grandparents' place today. May seem to be a boliao thing to do, but hey, try travelling from Hougang to Boon Lay without a discman.
Why such a topic?
Many weeks ago, before the start of my exams, I received an sms from an ex-colleague (and i really mean long long time ago) whom I've not heard from for a long time. Even though I've already deleted that number from my phone eons ago, I didn't think too much about replying to the sms-es. I mean, it's not too bad to keep in touch with people you used to work with and were on ok terms with, right?
And then, I began to get more and more sms-es. And then I learnt that this person was on the verge of being kicked out of his lodging by his sister and her friend. Yet, there remained a refusal to elaborate on the circumstances. But even more sms-es followed. And it did get creepy. I mean, when a person you've lost touch with suddenly starts being so concerned about you and you were not even super close to the person in the past, it feels a bit weird right? Not forgetting that this person is older than me, yet he behaves like some teenager.
Am I just being paranoid or what? Somehow, it seems unusual that a person with extreme behaviours like me would be frightened by extremes. But the whole episode is enough to make me avoid replying the sms-es as much as possible...
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Noticed my recent entries have been angst-ridden. Adults are supposed to have a tighter rein over their emotions. Yet, why do I feel as if I'm regressing?
Then again, why do people advocate good emotional handling? No doubt, a total lack of it would mean somewhat like LiQing's violent behaviour, which, for obvious reasons, should not be condoned. The point is, sometimes, the better we are at hiding our emotions, the more 'plastic' we become and worse, misunderstandings arise easily too.
Take for example, B does something that A does not like. A, like any good adults, suppresses his opinions. So B, not knowing that A is not too happy with his actions continues with what he is doing, thereby incurring greater wrath. And the cycle continues until one day, A explodes. By then, it'll be too late.
Can't help but recall a certain word that 'grandfather' used to use.. 'backlash' Indeed, whatever we do, the true outcome will definitely show. The only difference is when. A rigid glass bottle can only hold a certain amount of air before it explodes. Similarly, a balloon though flexible, is liable of bursting if air continues to be pumped in non-stop.
The point is, why on earth do we harp on being able to be nice to everyone even when we detest that person or his actions deep down? Kids do quarrel and make up soon after. On the other hand, when adults quarrel, the thorn stays there no matter how they 'patch up' later. So perhaps it's time that we relegate back to our childhood behaviour?
Sunday, December 12, 2004
It takes a truly boliao person like me to be able to type blog entries that often. Oh well.. I AM boliaoz..
Finally, met up with Ciyao on our once every 6 months meet-up (No thanks to SBS, I was late againz.. grrr.. to think I got up early!!!) Walked around Parkway.. ate at Jack's Place and then did a bit of shopping cum window shopping. Nothing much unusual, but like I always say, it's not what you do that matters, but the company that you have. Being with her just feels great.. for no particular reason. (Hmm.. somehow was just reminded about the need to help her with some matchmaking.. her mum would be very pleased with me... haha.. Nah.. But I don't think she really needs my help lahz)
Oh.. and something great happened today too! Bumped into.... QIUTING!!!!!!!! To think I was still wondering if she was back, and there she was, with her sis and her dad. Her sis IS truly truly truly CUTE!!!!! =) Shall look forward to meeting up with her
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The media merger dust has settled. Some are leaving, some are staying. Somehow, the feeling is just not the same. 'Tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi' Yet, a TV station that had kept me company through my 4 years of Uni life, it just feels weird without it. Oh well.. Life is harsh.. Even Star Awards don't seem as interesting as it was years ago.
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Don't know what came over me to send that apology sms. In any case, it feels better to have apologised, even if the person in question had no idea I was damn pissed with him..
Saturday, December 11, 2004
The feeling of emptiness after the rain... feels like a directionless person... just moving without knowing..
Just like what I asked Koon and Daniel, why am I always in the wrong when I stand up for another?
Know this sounds ultra pathetic.. But, does anyone want to keep me company for the whole of the Monday after this coming one? I just don't want to be at home for the whole day... somewhat akin to running away.. still... PLEASE? I'm not choosy about who, or what to do... I just want to hide... can?
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Can't help but notice this comment on someone else's blog whom I was surfing on.. My apologies for the infringement:
"for the night...it was J that YF and me riled up over her refusal to change her bathing stuff...i shan't say what it was...but it was irritating enough to waste a good 40mins getting and negotiating with her in the dorm, the bathroom and back at the dorm again..."
Comments: Aiyoh, that is so easy already... Try having the gals from my group... a.k.a. bessie...
Who says Bessie is that hard to deal with? It merely depends on what method you use. Having dealt with both J and B, J definitely gets my vote for being harder to deal with. Then again, shall be diplomatic and keep my comments to myself.. But can't help but wonder about the reason for someone always having a hard time dealing with them. Perhaps like what my sis says that the particular person can't always be so awfully unlucky, right?
No idea why I went to do another personality test again... Somehow the first thought that popped into my mind was something that I sms-ed someone many months ago.. What am I suited for? Or do I have no strengths at all?
Anyway, according to the test, ESFPs generally have the following traits:
Live in the present moment
Are stimulated and excited by new experiences
Practical and realistic
Warmly interested in people
Know how to have a good time, and how to make things fun for others
Independent and resourceful
Spontaneous - seldom plan ahead
Hate structure and routine
Dislike theory and long written explanations
Feel special bond with children and animals
Strongly developed aesthetic appreciation for things
Great people skills
ESFPs are good at many things, but will not be happy unless they have a lot of contact with people, and a lot of new experiences. They should choose careers which provide them with the opportunity to use their great people skills and practical perspective, which will also provide them with enough new challenges that they will not become bored.
The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an ESFP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.
Artists, Performers and Actors
Sales Representatives
Counselors / Social Work
Child Care (WHAT? They must be joking...)
Fashion Designers
Interior Decorators
Consultants
Photographers
As you can see... It's Sooo inaccurate.. Either that, or I should start worrying, that there are no jobs suitable for me.. Hmm...









